Hey Guys =)
Sorry for the looooonnnnnggggg delay in posting. Truth is these past two months have been rather life changing..
In February, the week after valentines day me and my boyfriend decided to split up and although it was a mutual agreement it was a massive change in my life. We had been together four years, I lived with him, he was all I knew. So after I went to work in London for the weekend I got home on the Monday evening and moved out Tuesday.
I am now back living with my parents, sister and gorgeous little nephew. It's a full house but i'm never lonely.
Something like splitting from a partner can be hard but it can also be just what you need. I knew deep down that things weren't right with us for a long time. In my head I left that relationship 6 months previous, it sounds harsh but when we finally called it a day I was genuinely ok because i'd already grieved the loss of the relationship. I met him when I was 19 (he was 30 - I know big age gap right) I am now 23. My mum always taught me that when you turn 18, 21 and 24 you make a lot of changes in your life mentally and you become the person you want to be. Of course as a child and teenager I was like ha yeh right I know who I am.....sure as eggs is eggs Mamma was right. I was a child when I met him but it worked, only as I started to grow up and define who I was and he stayed the same because he already knew who he was did the cracks start to show.
Along with breaking up, moving back home, my job role changed at work, my mum was having tests for cervical cancer (which came back negative woop) it has been a very tiring couple of months.
They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Couldn't agree more. In this short time I have learnt that only you can make your life what you want it and if I wanted something to go ahead and strive for it. I've not laughed so much in a long time, it's been great spending quality time with friends, dancing our shoes off and letting my hair down. I've made loads of progress with my therapy and had some great epiphanies, i'm relaxed at work and I've started to plan my trip to go travelling. Everyone I know has said how much I've changed and how happy I seem and it's nice to feel that too.
So from now on my blog is going to be what I feel passionate about, still going to be lots of beauty but more about life and my journey as I discover what it's like to be a motivated young woman finding her way in the world. I hope you'll join me through it.
Love to you all xxx <3
